When My Heart Is Overwhelmed

This morning I was tempted to throw in the towel. I mean for real. I just wanted to give up on life. Was it because of a fresh snowfall when instead I desired spring weather? No, no, no. The snow is pristine.

Did Benny give me a hard time? No, he was actually amazingly good this morning! Benny didn’t even get upset when the girls all left for work. Thanks to chamomile tea via the feeding tube, and calming oils from Young Living. (Frankincense, Lavender & Stress Away.)

Maybe the great and terrible Influenza A came to perch on my being? Nope.

Did I discover head lice and bed bugs all on the same day? NOOOOO! (Have mercy on me, will ya?) 🙂

So why then did the towel almost get thrown into destruction with a vengeance?

Because I was bothered by the cares and burdens of life. We all have our own share of them, right? Please don’t tell me I’m all alone and not a single other person has them! Not only was I bothered by them, I single-handedly tried to carry them on my shoulders, strapping them on like a professional hiker in training. Lumbering up the trail, hanging my head in utter defeat and dismay, and because I have a will the size of Mt Everest, I was determined to fix everything for everyone, all by myself.

As I began unloading the dishwasher, I discovered myself singing, “I must tell Jesus all of my troubles…” but no, I didn’t feel like telling Jesus. So I kept putting dishes away…”I cannot bear these burdens alone. I must tell Jesus and he will help me; Jesus can help me, Jesus alone.” The words of this song could not be stopped and finally, at long last, they registered in my heart. I don’t have to walk alone. Jesus can help me. That is some awesome good news!

Eventually, after my morning routine, I ventured onto Facebook and the above quote is the first thing I came across. I read it, commented to the dear friend who shared it and put Facebook away. It was all I needed for my day.

Then later, I opened the front door and there was Harper, my daughter’s Bernese Mountain Dog, so happy to see me, and thrilled with the fresh snow. Her puppy dog eyes told me that no matter what, she loved me. 🙂