Dear mom of a special needs child,
Good Monday morning as you begin yet another week caring for a most precious child!
I see you there, coming away from the weekend.
I see a shadow of discontent momentarily come across your eyes as you shove that bolus feed through your child’s feeding tube.
I see how it appears that other’s lives keep right on going and you get left behind and choking from the clouds of dust billowing from their heels. I get it.
Perhaps you heard of others reaching out to that person you would love to minister to as well. But you aren’t able to get away. Maybe someone shared a glowing testimony at church of valiance and the power of God working through them and, mhmm, you are tempted to think you are “stuck” at home and God can never use you.
Perhaps you notice new friendships being formed, but because you can’t pour yourself into those same friendships like others can, you get a feeling of being forgotten.
May you abandon all feelings of smallness and being unnoticed!
I know how easy it is for us to begin feeling tiny and insignificant as we observe others doing great and noble things when it is impossible for us to do the same.
I can honestly confess that this has been me and I have had me a life-threatening case of PLOM’s disease a time or two. (Poor Little Old Me.) It stinks. It’s foul and nasty. It is a sickness complete with whiney tears running down my cheeks and lumps too big to swallow stuck in my throat. A pathetic illness induced by feeling sorry for myself. No. Just writing this makes me blush all shades of red to my shame.
But then…
…then I asked myself,
“What are people supposed to do? Stop their life and ministries because poor little me feels forgotten and left behind?” See how self-absorbed that sounds? God forbid that I should wallow in this muck. I’m gettin’ outta here!
Then I went through pictures and found love…
Diana and Benny.
My Benny and I.
Sammy and Benny.
A love moment captured behind the scenes.
Hannah and Benny.
Daddy-o and Benny.
I found love in the sunshine brought to our home daily by a little boy named Benny, and it was enough for me.
Oh, how thankful I am this Monday morning “For the Love of Benny.”
“Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.” Deuteronomy 31:6
